I've been diagnosed with an anxiety disorder since 5th grade, although I've had it my whole life. Over the years, it's been getting worse and worse. Last summer, I hit my breaking point. I fell into a deep depression and lost touch with the majority of my friends, except for a few special ones who have supported me one hundred percent. I started cutting class because I was too anxious to be seen in public. I had to find a way out of this
feeling, so I invested myself in music. I looked up bands that random people in my school had liked on Facebook, just to see if anyone else was like me. I looked into lyrics and was disappointed to find no depth in them.
feeling, so I invested myself in music. I looked up bands that random people in my school had liked on Facebook, just to see if anyone else was like me. I looked into lyrics and was disappointed to find no depth in them.
I came across Twenty One Pilots then, finding them in the Facebook likes of a person I've never spoken to. I listened to
Holding Onto You and became completely hooked. My sister randomly chatted me from college one day, telling me how
obsessed she was with this random band, and it turned out to be Twenty One Pilots. After that, I looked up every lyric and was so
happy to find substance and truth. I could relate to the lyrics and for the first time in my life, I knew I wasn't alone with my mental struggles. I'd always hear people say "It gets better", but hearing Tyler and Josh skip the cliché quotes and say more of a "Yeah, it's hard, I know. But you're not alone" really just pulled me out of my depression.
Holding Onto You and became completely hooked. My sister randomly chatted me from college one day, telling me how
obsessed she was with this random band, and it turned out to be Twenty One Pilots. After that, I looked up every lyric and was so
happy to find substance and truth. I could relate to the lyrics and for the first time in my life, I knew I wasn't alone with my mental struggles. I'd always hear people say "It gets better", but hearing Tyler and Josh skip the cliché quotes and say more of a "Yeah, it's hard, I know. But you're not alone" really just pulled me out of my depression.
Of course brain chemistry is unfortunately more complicated than that, my depression is obviously still present. But Tyler and Josh have helped me through everything. Whenever I was feeling destructive or the least bit sad, I'd just listen to any of their albums or live concerts and feel so much better. Guns for Hands is by far my favorite song, for too many reasons to list. Tyler and Josh are inspirational to me, just for being so honest. For years I'd been too afraid to write because of judgment from my classmates, but Twenty One Pilots has gotten me back into writing. I've always scoffed at the people who claim that music is life, but listening to this band and their words that everyone else seems too afraid to say has changed my perception of my mental illnesses. I'm seeing them live for the first time in Lowell on September 6th. Without Tyler and Josh, I'd frankly be a mess. And that's my story. --
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