didn't believe that music could save lives until I listened to twenty one pilots. I was going through one of the many dark times in my life, when my depression was at its peak. I ended up listening to Holding On To You and crying; "the window sill looks really nice, right? You think twice about your life, it probably happens at night, right? Fight it, take the pain, ignite it." Those words meant more to me than anyone could understand. I wasn't alone; these guys knew what I was dealing with. I listened to every album on repeat, and I still do. My mom wasn't aware of the extremity of my depression; she didn't realize how close I was to the edge. One day we were alone in the car and I played her Migraine, Car Radio, and Fake You Out. She just looked at me and said "this is really how you feel?" And yes I felt that way but I was getting better, I wanted to stay alive. To this day, I'm not completely better, I still sit on my floor crying and listening to Kitchen Sink, but they're not tears of sadness, they're tears of recognition. I recognize that it's time to battle this, it’s time to stop living in constant fear, and I owe this new chapter in my life to Tyler and Josh. I turn 18 next year and the first thing I'm going to do is get some kind of tattoo to mark my love for them, to remind me how much they helped me. I'm crying now even as I write this, because I also want to thank the fandom. I read your stories and I feel so connected to each and every one of you. You all helped me stay alive and I can't thank you enough for being there for me, even if you didn't know it. Recently, I saw them open for Fall Out Boy. I was there in the crowd, watching my idols back flip and sing the songs that changed by life, Tyler even crowd surfed. But, I will never forget the words Tyler said before he played Car Radio: "life is about living, please don't kill yourself, it's not worth it"
I'm not going to take my life. I used to want to, but it's important to STAY ALIVE
thank you Tyler Joseph
and Josh Dun for making me believe that I am lovely.
I'm not going to take my life. I used to want to, but it's important to STAY ALIVE
thank you Tyler Joseph
and Josh Dun for making me believe that I am lovely.