This isn't an easy story to tell, I've been trying to forget most of it for a long time instead of facing it head on. Twenty one pilots helped with that.
I first heard a twenty one pilots song (none other than holding onto you, the only song to continuously be my favourite for almost 3 years) in January 2013 when Vessel came out in the UK. I had just lost my best friend to suicide in December 2012 and my whole life had flipped completely on it's head. It meant I was suddenly left with a lot more free time on my hands that I didn't know what to do with which often led down a dark route of depressing thoughts in a mind that couldn't deal with any of it anymore. Losing my best friend, the only person I felt truly cared for me, was the cherry on the cake and I decided to end my life too. And after a month of retreating into myself and avoiding almost everyone as much as physically possible I finally set a date and then I heard Holding Onto You for the first time and I just broke into tears and realised what I was doing and called the person I should've talked to a long time ago but avoided. For the next year, I spent every minute of my free time with my headphones in absorbing their lyrics and understanding my own pain which I'd never really done before.
Fast forward to 2015 and tickets to their show had all sold out for May just like they had for their November 2014 shows and I was devastated because nothing would've meant more to me than seeing and meeting the people who kept me going for 2 whole years when I thought I couldn't on my 18th birthday. Thankfully, I had an amazing friend who surprised me by taking me to the show without telling me and the whole experience made me the happiest I had ever been in my whole life, the hugs from the guys, the people in the clique that let me move in front of them cause I was too small for life, holding tyler's hand during holding onto you and then holding his drum and getting water all over me and the whole experience has kept me going ever since.
Thanks to you two (+my amazing best friend), I have been clean from self harm for almost 6 months, I haven't even thought of suicide all year. In two weeks I see you again at two shows and I can't even contain my excitement. Ever since I saw you both in May my life picked up majorly and I'm more determined than ever to keep it up. I wish I could do something more to show my appreciation but for now...thank you twenty one pilots, for giving me hope, but most of all, thank you for helping me stay alive |-/
I first heard a twenty one pilots song (none other than holding onto you, the only song to continuously be my favourite for almost 3 years) in January 2013 when Vessel came out in the UK. I had just lost my best friend to suicide in December 2012 and my whole life had flipped completely on it's head. It meant I was suddenly left with a lot more free time on my hands that I didn't know what to do with which often led down a dark route of depressing thoughts in a mind that couldn't deal with any of it anymore. Losing my best friend, the only person I felt truly cared for me, was the cherry on the cake and I decided to end my life too. And after a month of retreating into myself and avoiding almost everyone as much as physically possible I finally set a date and then I heard Holding Onto You for the first time and I just broke into tears and realised what I was doing and called the person I should've talked to a long time ago but avoided. For the next year, I spent every minute of my free time with my headphones in absorbing their lyrics and understanding my own pain which I'd never really done before.
Fast forward to 2015 and tickets to their show had all sold out for May just like they had for their November 2014 shows and I was devastated because nothing would've meant more to me than seeing and meeting the people who kept me going for 2 whole years when I thought I couldn't on my 18th birthday. Thankfully, I had an amazing friend who surprised me by taking me to the show without telling me and the whole experience made me the happiest I had ever been in my whole life, the hugs from the guys, the people in the clique that let me move in front of them cause I was too small for life, holding tyler's hand during holding onto you and then holding his drum and getting water all over me and the whole experience has kept me going ever since.
Thanks to you two (+my amazing best friend), I have been clean from self harm for almost 6 months, I haven't even thought of suicide all year. In two weeks I see you again at two shows and I can't even contain my excitement. Ever since I saw you both in May my life picked up majorly and I'm more determined than ever to keep it up. I wish I could do something more to show my appreciation but for now...thank you twenty one pilots, for giving me hope, but most of all, thank you for helping me stay alive |-/