I found out about twenty one pilots a couple years ago and I really think I found them at the perfect time. It was 2011 and I was going through the most difficult time in my life. No one really knew it but I had recently stopped eating, and it was mostly just a way to cope with my depression. Over a couple months this eating disorder had spiraled out of control, I would refuse any food and if I did eat I would throw it up. I had no friends, no one to talk to I felt alone. Soon I started cutting myself. A lot. I wanted to kill myself. This was about the time I discovered twenty one pilots and I thought they were wonderful. I could relate to all their songs and loved there messages. Every night I would hide under my covers and put in my headphones and listen to all of their songs. Sometimes I would get hooked on one song and would play it over and over and figure it out. During this time where I wanted to kill myself my favorite song was truce, I think I just really like to fall asleep listening to someone tell me "stay alive stay alive for me" it made me feel like someone cared. I found that the more I OBSESSED over them and their music, and the more I used music as an escape the less alone/depressed I became. Slowly began to eat normally, and even more slowly I began to stop thinking I should just kill myself. Near the end of 2012 was when I had completely overcame my eating disorder and nearly overcame self-harm, and by then the thought that I could end it all with just a bottle of pills had evaporated. I didn't pass bridges anymore and think about putting an end to myself. I learned that “life has a hopeful undertone”. Today is November 25th 2013 and I don’t cut myself anymore. My first concert was November 23 2013. And it was indescribable, not only because I got to sing and dance along with the people who had helped me so much; the people I look up to, but because I was part of a group of beautiful broken people. I was able to sing along with a group and with Tyler “were broken, were broken, were broken, were broken people oooh”. I was able to jump up and down and scream with people who were all struggling and all looked up to the same people as me. I was able to feel like I was not alone. So to Tyler and to Josh thank you so much for your songs.
Stay Alive |-/
Stay Alive |-/