The first time I heard it I was in the car with my sister and she was playing Migraine and the second song was Ode to Sleep and the only thing I could think is "what is this?" I was not originally a fan, I didn't get it. I kept thinking "what is he even saying". So eventually I looked up what he was saying and I got angry. I was angry that it was so true, by nature I don't like to be understood and here I was sitting in front of a list of lyrics that were written my a complete stranger and I could have been reading my own journal. Eventually, I admitted that I loved the music and when I did it scared me because I thought if people knew I liked music talking about depression that they may start to figure me out. But the more I listened the less I cared if people knew because I didn't need anyone other than this music.
Still, I was not a huge fan. I liked the music and the meaning but I still did not get it. Then, on April 26 I went to the hometown show. I went with my sister and her best friend, so I was bound to get left out. My sister had already been to 2 shows and this was not exciting to her, but for me it was everything. I somehow hopped away from my sister and got into the front row. I was alone, could not find the people I can with and yet I was not scared because I felt more supported and related to than any other time in my life. I was in a pool of people who felt the same as I did and that we're fighting their demons just like I was and it was the most incredible feeling you could ever experience. After that night Twenty One Pilots made sense to me and I became the ultimate fan girl. I always hesitate to say that they saved my life, but they defiantly changed my life and taught me that "life has a hopeful undertone".
Tyler and Josh, thank you so much for creating this community of broken and breaking people. For pulling a bunch of ordinary people out of their lives and helping them to be a part of something that is bigger than anyone of us, and for making me proud to be from Columbus for the first time ever. I love you boys so much, thank you for making me want to stay alive|-/