Hey, I don't honestly know how to start this, so once again, hi. So I guess this is my story. I guess I started listening to you guys because of my friends, so I did, I loved it, I joined about the time when Lane Boy and Stressed Out were released, so about March 2015, but you guys had the biggest impact in August 2015, I had relapsed, hard. It was the worst bout of depression I had ever had, I relapsed because of old memories of a toxic friendship I had had earlier that year, because I felt worthless next to my brother and because school was starting back again. School is something I was scared if starting again because my friends were going to a different school and last year was terrible, but it was terrible, I would text my friends crying because I had taken the needle from my sewing kit and raked it across my skin, that was the first time I had ever self harmed, and it hurt, I didn't want to, but a voice in my head said it would help, it felt like I was possessed a lot of the time, I felt numb, but I would turn to your music, I would fall asleep to it, I felt safe. I went to therapy for it, I remember the first time I went I wore my 'Power to the local dreamer' because I felt better. But I'm better. You also taught me something that nothing and no one could before, how to love myself. I had always hated myself because I wasn't the same size as most of the girls at school, that I had to wear glasses, my smile, how deep my voice was, but you guys each taught me, in the most subtle way, that I was perfect. The year before I found you guys I would only wear knee length shirts and tee shirt, never tank tops, in the summer, but the summer after I did, I wore shorter shorts, I wore tank tops because I was comfortable in my own skin for once in my life. People could probably tell you I'm a lot more open and happy this year. So thank you, thank you for helping me to sleep with your music, for making me believe I am lovely. Thank you. |-/
P:S I got tickets to see you at Emotional Roadshow on the 28th of June, if they aren't scams. (my brother also said that when I opened the tickets, it was the happiest he had seen me in a long time)
P:S I got tickets to see you at Emotional Roadshow on the 28th of June, if they aren't scams. (my brother also said that when I opened the tickets, it was the happiest he had seen me in a long time)