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I never thought I would be part of something so special, and life saving. Twenty one pilots not only make my life easier, they save me.
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didn't believe that music could save lives until I listened to twenty one pilots. I was going through one of the many dark times in my life, when my depression was at its peak. I ended up listening to Holding On To You and crying; "the window sill looks really nice, right? You think twice about your life, it probably happens at night, right? Fight it, take the pain, ignite it." Those words meant more to me than anyone could understand. I wasn't alone; these guys knew what I was dealing with. I listened to every album on repeat, and I still do. My mom wasn't aware of the extremity of my depression; she didn't realize how close I was to the edge. One day we were alone in the car and I played her Migraine, Car Radio, and Fake You Out. She just looked at me and said "this is really how you feel?" And yes I felt that way but I was getting better, I wanted to stay alive. To this day, I'm not completely better, I still sit on my floor crying and listening to Kitchen Sink, but they're not tears of sadness, they're tears of recognition. I recognize that it's time to battle this, it’s time to stop living in constant fear, and I owe this new chapter in my life to Tyler and Josh. I turn 18 next year and the first thing I'm going to do is get some kind of tattoo to mark my love for them, to remind me how much they helped me. I'm crying now even as I write this, because I also want to thank the fandom. I read your stories and I feel so connected to each and every one of you. You all helped me stay alive and I can't thank you enough for being there for me, even if you didn't know it. Recently, I saw them open for Fall Out Boy. I was there in the crowd, watching my idols back flip and sing the songs that changed by life, Tyler even crowd surfed. But, I will never forget the words Tyler said before he played Car Radio: "life is about living, please don't kill yourself, it's not worth it" I'm not going to take my life. I used to want to, but it's important to STAY ALIVE thank you Tyler Joseph and Josh Dun for making me believe that I am lovely. I went to see another band but it just so happened that Twenty One Pilots was playing. I didn't know anything about and had never heard their music before. It was also luck that I had been able to make it, tickets had sold out a few minutes after we bought ours. I am not a very social person so going to stand in the general admission area was starting to cause anxiety, but once they came on... I let the music wash over me. I felt the drum in my chest and let his voice engulf my thoughts. Them opening made the night so much better. Once I got home I looked up as much as I could about them with their songs on repeat. I have never had such a deep love for music in my life. I had been stuck in a rut. I was a lazy, high school dropout, no job, and no motivation to do things I love because my fear of failing keeps me from doing anything. My numerous phobias/anxieties have been preventing me from living. But listening to their music it inspires me to take chances and be able to finally begin my life. Because of them I am going to learn how to play the guitar and start singing again. They are inspiring me to finally take a chance and write the novel I have been planning for years. I can finally say that this is how I want my life to be. I want to bring smiles, laughter, and happiness to other people. I don't want people to feel alone like I have felt for so long. I would love to one day meet them in person, to show just how thankful I am that they have helped clear a path in my life with their music. I have scheduled to take my GED test and I am working on getting a job right now. My anxieties have melted and I am able to function around other people. I hope they keep making music because they are saving lives. I appreciate everything they have done for me. I am forever grateful. I don't want people to feel alone like I have felt for so long. I had the amazing opportunity to see twenty one pilots along with some other great bands a couple weeks ago and I instantly fell in love. During the show, I heard for the first time the song "Guns for Hands" and it ended up speaking to me on so many levels. Right before the song Tyler even said "This is Gun for Hands, please don't kill yourself." I listened to the lyrics and it hit home. I became an instant fan and knew that I would be for a very long time. That day changed my life because after the show I realized that I didn't want to be sad anymore and that I could be happy. Before then I wanted to be sad and unhappy all the time, but after seeing them perform I realized that I deserved more than that. I deserve to be happy and Tyler and Josh helped me to realize that. I also realized how much that I wanted to do music for a living and as of now I have started reaching for my goal. Thank you guys for helping me to realize so much and to want to make myself a better person. Thank you for making music with a meaning. Thank you for being a part of saving my life. |-/ The first time i heard Twenty One Pilots i instantly fell in love with Tyler and Josh and could not stop obsessing over there videos and songs!! Then a few weeks ago i won FOB tickets for the Save Rock and Roll tour in San Diego (9/22/13). The moment i walked into the stadium i see the infamous Twenty One Pilots banner and old piano! Immediately i freaked out and could not stop screaming! I had no idea that they were going to be on the tour because i had just won the tickets 3 days prior. IT WAS FATE!!!! Seeing them live even made me fall in love with them even more. Then even more when Tyler jumped into the crowd and grabbed my hand while he was singing "Holding on to You"! Seeing Twenty One Pilots was the best part of the FOB concert! So life changing i had to buy tickets to see them Nov.10 at the HOB!!! I saw Twenty One Pilots when they opened for Fall Out Boy and Panic! At The Disco in Toronto. I'd heard the name before but had never paid much attention or bothered to actually look them up. I was in the crowd looking up and realized how amazing they were. I felt weak at one point, the lyrics resonating so strongly with me. The next day I went on iTunes and downloaded Vessel. Then once I listened to it and decided I needed more of their music, went and got the rest as well. I feel like Tyler and I share a similar thinking style, and I also relate to his lyrics in almost every case. I've suffered from depression, insomnia, self-harm, and self-esteem problems for years. However, I am trying to stay positive. Twenty One Pilots are making me think, and making me smile. It's nearly impossible to hear their music and not smile or not think deeply, depending on the song. Josh is an amazing drummer, and puts 100% into the show; with his back flips and whatnot. :) They're downright brilliant. Thank you so much guys! |-/ A lot a people define twenty one pilot as ¨more than just music¨. If hip hop is I first saw twenty one pilots when made a trip from Montreal to Cleveland to see Walk The Moon, who was opening for Neon Trees. They opened with Ode To Sleep and I was hooked from the first minute. I was intrigues by their sound, mostly, but also by the audience they had. It seemed like half the crowd came for them, and they were pretty intense to me. So, after the show, I bought Regional at Best and put it immediately in my car. I wish now I would have waited in line to meet them but I wasn't alone and we had to go. Since then, my love for them constantly grew. I must have seen everything about them on Youtube, from interviews to live shows, and I never get tired of hearing them speak or play. I've never felt this drawn to any band before, and music is a big part of my life since my childhood. I just feel like they have so much more to say than any band I know. Tyler said somewhere that love is not the most powerful feeling, it's fear. And i'm a very fearful person. I fear people, I fear loneliness, I fear love, I fear rejection, I fear failure... I fear life and I fear death. I know what feeling like you're stuck inside yourself is like. The intensity with which I give myself in my studies is the best way I found to forget basically all my problems. I feel numb most of the time. But then, when I listen to twenty one pilots, it's like being alive to me. It may sound silly, but listening to the lyrics brings all my problem back and, in the end of the process, I can focus again. I wish I could tell personally Josh and Tyler how I feel about their music. It pains me to know I'll never get to give them as much as they gave me. I made a trip to Toronto to see them open for FOB. I put my job and my studies aside, I didn't care about the consequences and, believe me, that's a lot to me. I found this site surfing on the net while I am planning another trip to see them, this time in Detroit. It's near the end of the semester, and I'm poor, but I don't care. I know a lot of people will understand what I mean when I say that I need to see them perform. A lot a people define twenty one pilot as ¨more than just music¨. If hip hop is a lifestyle for some people, twenty one pilot is a ¨thinking style¨ to me. They represent almost a brand new philosophy, a new kind of religion – forgive me the strong term – in the way they get people to unite, to ¨ponder of greater things¨, to find hope inside the chaos we call life. Above all the things they bring to me, they bring me hope. Reading the other stories really got to me. It's been a few months since I often need to cry, for no obvious reason. And now it's come out. I know i'm not alone in my struggle, and I'm glad twenty one pilots exists to bring all the broken people together. I never speak of myself, of my real problems, even to my best friend. And he doesn't nearly enjoy twenty one pilots as much as I do. I wish I had a friend who did, he/she'd get me so much better. So, now, writing in this white box really feels like therapy to me. For this I would like to thank the lady who created this website. I hope reading this will eventually help someone or at least bring as little joy as it can. English is not my native tongue, so forgive the mistakes I may have made. Much love to every Pilots around the world. See you at a show. it was at my friends house when I first heard "holding onto you". as I listened to the lyrics I instantly fell in love with twenty one pilots! they have helped me through so much, Tyler and josh saved my life. when I was 5 my mother took her own life witch was the hardest thing I've ever had to go through, then my best friend in the entire world died of cancer, then my cousin. I was stuck in a deep depression, and I still get depressed all the time and its also hard enough having anxiety problems. I listen to them every single day, all day. they make everything better no matter what, they have such an effect on people, and I know they probably hear this all the time but.. twenty one pilots saved my life and they are everything to me <3 |
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